Friday, May 28, 2010

Goldfish Behaviour Lab




And if no words? and if it does not get along, to say, to write, to speak ... to express what I feel? if I can not build, nor relate ... if I can not write how to convey what I see, what I think? if the silence comes over me, clumsiness prevented me and fell, and I suffer in that fire can not find the formula, mode of to get, tell, explain ... everything?
what if convenient and easy to adopt for this position, and silence all my thoughts? if ditch struggle and effort to gather words to communicate feelings? and if I grow as a person quiet and hushed, and fall silent forever?
and if I find the words because I understand they are the ones that I do not belong? and if I apologize to silence, or I go silent?

shhhhhhhhhhh.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Arizona License Number Generator

She cries, and I now, too.

traveled by subway on my way back. Became absorbed in my thoughts. looking without seeing the backs of the houses, drains, damp stains, the disclosures of gas, the gas bottles, the empty awnings because of the clouds ... when suddenly I beheld. Sitting across from me, his knees almost against mine. Crossed eyes a moment, a moment of shame, the kind of "caught me", and we did so because she was hiding something. Clutched her purse to her chest, and had shrunk his neck, trying to get into the trench. I hid facing left, into the hall, land, other than as I sat, went on the subway.
see her again, she looked out the window. I guess watching these facades reverse, those gray, those green moldy, when suddenly his eyes became glazed, his nose turned red, and barely moving, he managed to pull out a handkerchief from his pocket, and quietly, rubbing his chin, his mouth, hide again, then behind the black bag.
knew not react, or yes. I followed my mind while watching indiscreetly shooting me messages: Take him her hand, give him a tissue, ask if you are right ... I could only smile with respect. Sketch a small smile that appeared at the corner of my lips, and she nodded with appreciation. That's when my stomach when hungry, was filled with a ball of desire: desire to mourn, urge to scream at everyone, like hugging ... I was seeing empty mourn. Watching her tears streaked her cheeks. Now
alone. Recalling what I saw and what I experienced, and what I felt, I think I held too the kind that in an excellent grasp my imagination, not succumbing to the ideas of the death of his dog, loss of a suitcase in the news a disease ... what?. The fact is that she was suffering and I looked.
Happy new day.

pd. I got off with aplomb, leaving my chair and my curiosity. I left there and since then I have not seen him, but I would like.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

How Fast Do Temazepam Work

Too much water for myself.

I do not like eating alone. Either at home or in a restaurant. Most prefer not to eat to do with a newspaper behind the potato salad on the other side of a glass of water.

not speak alone. When I catch her talking to herself ... and she replied that, yes it is serious. Neither

dances alone. Not so much for me in the middle of the track, watching the rest of my notes, but only in soledad.Sin anyone who does me.

I do not like walking alone on a deserted street, but not for fear of the bogeyman appears, but I do not like the clicking of my shoes in that solitude.

I like to wait alone. "Why no one else? What about the rest? To see if the bus does not work today and I'm sitting here alone doing nothing."

I like to celebrate anything alone. Do you compliment me myself? "Providing the mirror?. I do not smile like one, something else is smiling alone. But it is someone smile, what sense does it?.

I do not like going to a funeral alone. I feel that the deceased is placed beside me and watch me. "Then go situation, both here alone! ... Go box!" I feel a deep sadness also seeing that person alone. Almost more than me.

I do not like being alone at work. All done, say goodbye and go, and I, there filing down some little disaster ... that would surely fix the next day.

I do not like being alone in the pool. Too much water for myself.